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Non est ad astra mollis e terris via.
09 May 2009 @ 08:39 pm
25 March 2009 @ 10:41 am
The library is a great place to watch people behaving like animals.
Weird. Crazy. Scary. Animals. Putting their hands out to strangle librarians.
Weird. Crazy. Scary. Animals. Putting their hands out to strangle librarians.
14 March 2009 @ 08:18 pm
I recently learned a new word; coprophilia. I recently learned that, supposedly, James Joyce and Jonathan Swift were coprophiliacs...and Swift has a whole collection of scat poetry, which I am unfortunately unable to find. I wanna check that shit out! No pun intended, honest.
Bah, I have to pack. I'm leaving for Virginia tomorrow night after work and staying until Friday night. I'm excited! And exhausted! But mostly excited! I need to charge my mp3 player, music definitely eases the four hour commute.
I stumbled upon this interesting lady, Emily Wells, might have to download some-a-that for the ride:
Bah, I have to pack. I'm leaving for Virginia tomorrow night after work and staying until Friday night. I'm excited! And exhausted! But mostly excited! I need to charge my mp3 player, music definitely eases the four hour commute.
I stumbled upon this interesting lady, Emily Wells, might have to download some-a-that for the ride:
13 February 2009 @ 11:35 am
Yo no te quiero así,
Yo no te quiero más que la luna y las estrellas,
Pero tal vez te quiero un poco más que esta tierra pequeña
Yo no te quiero así,
Yo no te quiero para siempre,
O tan profundamente como los océanos donde se perdió la ciudad de Atlantis,
Pero quizás yo te amo en este momento,
O por una hora,
Con un amor tan profundo como mi taza de café
Yo no te quiero así,
No quiero dar a luz a tus hijos
Y darles nombres tontos que escogí
Cuando tenía trece años,
Pero tal vez podemos adoptar un perro
Y pasearlo juntos mientras el sol sube o ajuste
Yo no te quiero así,
No voy a casarseme contigo
En un lugar exótico
En mayo
Con nuestros amigos y familiares viendo
Pero tal vez podemos hacer una promesa en el parque un día,
Bajo un árbol,
A toleranos con amor,
Siempre que podemos
Yo no te quiero así,
Pero tal vez - te amo
En esta manera.
Yo no te quiero más que la luna y las estrellas,
Pero tal vez te quiero un poco más que esta tierra pequeña
Yo no te quiero así,
Yo no te quiero para siempre,
O tan profundamente como los océanos donde se perdió la ciudad de Atlantis,
Pero quizás yo te amo en este momento,
O por una hora,
Con un amor tan profundo como mi taza de café
Yo no te quiero así,
No quiero dar a luz a tus hijos
Y darles nombres tontos que escogí
Cuando tenía trece años,
Pero tal vez podemos adoptar un perro
Y pasearlo juntos mientras el sol sube o ajuste
Yo no te quiero así,
No voy a casarseme contigo
En un lugar exótico
En mayo
Con nuestros amigos y familiares viendo
Pero tal vez podemos hacer una promesa en el parque un día,
Bajo un árbol,
A toleranos con amor,
Siempre que podemos
Yo no te quiero así,
Pero tal vez - te amo
En esta manera.
03 February 2009 @ 12:52 pm
01 February 2009 @ 05:07 pm
"Up to this point your post is the one with which I most agree. The American mentality is individualistic and the idea of community is lackluster at best. "Survival of the fittest" best describes the way people today live their lives. Somehow I still believe that people are innately good, but the world we live in is cut-throat. Especially when everyone is clamoring at once to get up the social ladder.
The wealthiest of the population aren't willingly charitable, if it weren't for the government forcing taxes to support social programs there are many people well-to-do who wouldn't throw in a dime. How sad that a government has to intervene to force people to be humane and support/care about one another. United we stand is a joke, mostly everyone is looking out for him/herself. But that is what we have been taught, if we acted otherwise we wouldn't survive.
America stresses the values it does (wealth, success, and power) because it's not a realistic possibility for everyone to achieve. The standards for doing so have gone up exponentially and if you are not born with a silver spoon in your mouth it is near impossible to gain the status held by the wealthiest percentage of this country. But that is how this country works, it is about control. If you, me and John Doe held the same wealth and power as any political figure or billionaire what means would there be to control us? Everyone can be bought and sold, getting away with crime would merely become a bribing game.
America is, to its natives, the greatest country in the world but the population has become naive through its isolation. To me it seems unforgivable that a country with as many resources as ours would let so many people suffer in poverty and unlivable conditions. It seems strange to me that in all the years poverty has grown as an issue no solution has shown itself. We can go to the moon, clone cats, and treat cancer but we can't offer livable conditions for our people? I don't buy it, I know it sounds like I am spouting conspiracy theory, but the lower class is a lot easier for a government to control than the upper class with its power and connections.
Anyone and everyone can commit a crime under the right circumstances. Some people do it for the thrill, others out of necessity. There are too many possibilities to go around making blanket statements and blaming poor morals. I think you will find very few people who share the EXACT SAME moral code. What is true for one, is not so for another. Abortion and gay marriage have become issues of moral debate in this country, "morals" are not cut and dry or universal. In Amsterdam prostitution is legal, and in some countries so is the sale and public use of marijuana, one person's opinion does not validate or void the opinion of another. Further, I could never condone forcing a country of unique individuals to abide by the same beliefs, with the little freedom we have left we should hold onto it a little tighter.
I think it's sad that if someone doesn't conform to the majority's way of life all of a sudden they are "lazy" and "immoral," everyone has a story. Some people choose life on the streets and others are victims of poor fortune. Maybe because most of us are middle class we think we understand how tough life can be, but we have no idea. We've lost our sympathy because we've been fed the idea that someone eating out of a dumpster has the same opportunities as someone who can afford the most expensive delicacy. The next job interview you go to try landing a job wearing the most beat-up thing you own that reeks of the city street and find that it's not so simple to live up to the standards of the 'American Dream.''
The wealthiest of the population aren't willingly charitable, if it weren't for the government forcing taxes to support social programs there are many people well-to-do who wouldn't throw in a dime. How sad that a government has to intervene to force people to be humane and support/care about one another. United we stand is a joke, mostly everyone is looking out for him/herself. But that is what we have been taught, if we acted otherwise we wouldn't survive.
America stresses the values it does (wealth, success, and power) because it's not a realistic possibility for everyone to achieve. The standards for doing so have gone up exponentially and if you are not born with a silver spoon in your mouth it is near impossible to gain the status held by the wealthiest percentage of this country. But that is how this country works, it is about control. If you, me and John Doe held the same wealth and power as any political figure or billionaire what means would there be to control us? Everyone can be bought and sold, getting away with crime would merely become a bribing game.
America is, to its natives, the greatest country in the world but the population has become naive through its isolation. To me it seems unforgivable that a country with as many resources as ours would let so many people suffer in poverty and unlivable conditions. It seems strange to me that in all the years poverty has grown as an issue no solution has shown itself. We can go to the moon, clone cats, and treat cancer but we can't offer livable conditions for our people? I don't buy it, I know it sounds like I am spouting conspiracy theory, but the lower class is a lot easier for a government to control than the upper class with its power and connections.
Anyone and everyone can commit a crime under the right circumstances. Some people do it for the thrill, others out of necessity. There are too many possibilities to go around making blanket statements and blaming poor morals. I think you will find very few people who share the EXACT SAME moral code. What is true for one, is not so for another. Abortion and gay marriage have become issues of moral debate in this country, "morals" are not cut and dry or universal. In Amsterdam prostitution is legal, and in some countries so is the sale and public use of marijuana, one person's opinion does not validate or void the opinion of another. Further, I could never condone forcing a country of unique individuals to abide by the same beliefs, with the little freedom we have left we should hold onto it a little tighter.
I think it's sad that if someone doesn't conform to the majority's way of life all of a sudden they are "lazy" and "immoral," everyone has a story. Some people choose life on the streets and others are victims of poor fortune. Maybe because most of us are middle class we think we understand how tough life can be, but we have no idea. We've lost our sympathy because we've been fed the idea that someone eating out of a dumpster has the same opportunities as someone who can afford the most expensive delicacy. The next job interview you go to try landing a job wearing the most beat-up thing you own that reeks of the city street and find that it's not so simple to live up to the standards of the 'American Dream.''
28 January 2009 @ 12:11 pm
Ella se llamaba Malena la maja y era una marinera en el barco que se llamaba La Marrón. Ella era una mujer que robaba a los pasajeros y después tiraba los cuerpos por la borda. Ella se divertía su vida en el mar hasta un día ella conoció al Príncipe de Lamballe, Leandro el Ladrón. Con cada día Malena se enamoraba de Leandro. Ellos hicieron un plan para huirse de La Marrón y casarse. Uno noche Leandro y Malena saltaron en el mar y nadaron a la orilla. Ellos cambiaron sus nombres y vivieron vidas ricas y contentas y juntos robaban la población de Valencia.
23 April 2008 @ 01:16 pm
I don't know why I find this so addictive, but I do.
5 days left of actual in-class time...where did this year go? I'm exponentially excited for next semester, I even got out of General Astronomy (which I heard is God-awful) and am instead taking Screen Writing. About this I'm pretty freakin' stoked. I'm also stoked about how my grades are shaping up so far -- I fo' def did amazing on my British Literature mid-term. Woot woot, raise the roof. :)
5 days left of actual in-class time...where did this year go? I'm exponentially excited for next semester, I even got out of General Astronomy (which I heard is God-awful) and am instead taking Screen Writing. About this I'm pretty freakin' stoked. I'm also stoked about how my grades are shaping up so far -- I fo' def did amazing on my British Literature mid-term. Woot woot, raise the roof. :)
13 April 2008 @ 08:33 pm
Couldn't hide my love for you
All the rain on Thamesside
Couldn't stop shining through
I dreamt of you last night
Lying next to me in blue
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
Run to the window and call out my name
We'll meet where the sun goes to hide from the rain
From the rain, from the rain
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
When everyone else is hiding
Rainy Sundays drunk at two
You'll whisper sweet lies to me
And one of them will be true
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
The gloom of the city at evening is still
You whisper come to me
And I always will
Always will, always will
All the rain in this town
And still the sky is blue
Saint James Square is teeming with doves
And that sunset they flew
Across the darkening city
To an attic room for two
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
I counted all the lights
They don't shine as bright
They don't pierce the night like you do
Like you do, like you do
Like you do, like you do
10 March 2008 @ 01:08 pm
Long time no post. Thankfully dull days are not to blame, I've been especially busy and especially living lately. New possibilities abound and more often I've noticed the little (positive) changes taking place around me. Though it's hard to miss the negative, nothing is any worse than usual. My dad is home once again and so am I (back from Ocean City), but I'm occupied enough to not get caught up with the tension it brings. And of course being especially passive doesn't hurt much either.
My Spanish professor talked to me quite seriously this morning, I was up in the library almost an hour early for class and she presented me with a clipping from the school paper...It was about opportunities to be an English teaching assistant in Spain for 9 months. They offer grants so that everything is covered, and above that you earn some semblance of a wage teaching. That's a pretty hefty pro/con list to struggle with...I'm flattered she finds me so adept, but by the same token I'd also become a year behind with school. Either way, it's a pretty amazing thing to think about, as Profesora Castillo put it if I would do something like that I "could pretty much write my ticket anywhere." What a resume opportunity, and what a chance to become fluent...what a chance to give my grandmom a heart attack. :P
Anyway, this is amazing(ly out of my price range).
Peace and Cheerios! :]
My Spanish professor talked to me quite seriously this morning, I was up in the library almost an hour early for class and she presented me with a clipping from the school paper...It was about opportunities to be an English teaching assistant in Spain for 9 months. They offer grants so that everything is covered, and above that you earn some semblance of a wage teaching. That's a pretty hefty pro/con list to struggle with...I'm flattered she finds me so adept, but by the same token I'd also become a year behind with school. Either way, it's a pretty amazing thing to think about, as Profesora Castillo put it if I would do something like that I "could pretty much write my ticket anywhere." What a resume opportunity, and what a chance to become fluent...what a chance to give my grandmom a heart attack. :P
Anyway, this is amazing(ly out of my price range).
Peace and Cheerios! :]
24 January 2008 @ 10:39 pm
10 January 2008 @ 12:49 am
Going home tomorrow to pick up my last paycheck and pay my car insurance. Hopefully seeing a few people while I'm in the area, maybe try to see an early movie on Friday with my crew-peeps??? Let me know if you guys are free because I don't think I have your e-mail addresses! I'm thinking Juno, maybe? Perchance? Anything and everything works for me, I'm not picky.
Hung around with Chelsea today, though for some reason I didn't get out of bed until 1 o'clock when Valerie called me. I think I woke up, saw rain, and decided it was not worth the effort to pull myself out of bed after getting only a few hours of sleep. We watched The Office for a few hours and then took a long walk on the beach tryin' to pick up hunnies. XD There were actually a few surfers out on the water which was pretty cool, and the weather was fantastic. In fact, the weather has been pretty darn fantastic EVERY day we've been here thus far. Living here is essentially the best vacation anyone could ever ask for.
Chelsea and I got back to the apartment around 5:00 and when Laurie got home we had another "family dinner" as we watched the Style channel and chowed down on some ziti. I'm so glad that we all manage to get along so well and the one thing that I really value the most is that we're <i>always</i> laughing. It's such a delightful and refreshing feeling, like everything is good, all the time. It makes me realize what I felt was missing at home, as sad as it is to say.
I think I'll be here through February but after that I need to get back to my responsibilities and obligations. I know I'll miss the shit out of everything I've gained by being here but it's done a world of good for me. I feel like a different person, I feel like a happy person, but most of all I feel extremely fortunate that I could take the oppurtunity to get away and get back to those feelings.
Ocean city's been "super cute!" :]
05 January 2008 @ 01:17 pm
So I guess it was around 11 o'clock when four strangers were all set and ready to walk into the apartment...because Brandon's partner's secretary gave them a freakin' key...how quaint. And apparently the upstairs fire escape door was open?? Also comforting. I'm glad no one is trying to hassle any would-be sexual predators with little nuissances like locked doors or anything.
G-r-e-a-t...but all is well, thankfully.
G-r-e-a-t...but all is well, thankfully.
05 January 2008 @ 12:32 am
03 January 2008 @ 11:06 pm
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Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is absurd --Voltaire
I'm finally leaving tomorrow. In a mere number of hours I am going to attempt to break whatever this hum-drum thing is into which I have fallen. I need a mental break. I need to be alone, in a way that just is not possible at home. Things have settled into contentment here, but I'm afraid it is because of wrong reasons and intentions. I need to get away and do something mentally productive. I want to write again. It's been so long since I've put pen to paper for personal reasons and I miss it. And I miss a feeling that I feel I've lost. There is a time I remember when I was always happy, it was unspoken and unconscious and I often took it for granted, never thinking it would have reason to leave me. But I've let myself fall into discontentment by neglecting things that were once important to me, I don't want to fall apart while there is still a time and a chance and a way to keep myself from going under. I have a lot of living that I want to do and I am set to start doing it. I want to be done with living in this box that has been created for me, I want weekend getaways to unfamiliar places and I want new experiences and...perhaps I am expecting too much, but I'm willing to bet that I deserve it now more than ever.
02 January 2008 @ 04:00 pm
26 December 2007 @ 11:58 pm
So...life...has gotten significantly better since my last, short but angsty entry. I'm "moving" to Ocean City come January 1st, but I think my stay is going to be substantially shorter than anticipated.
I need some time away, to chill out, get myself back together. I plan on being obligation free until the 23rd when classes start again. I also plan on many trips back to good ol' Hammonton while all of my college kin are still around.
I've been realizing a lot of things lately and this new perspective is doing a good job of making me feel better.
That's good times.
And I've been having lots of those lately, between hanging out with Regina, and Tequila/Margarita Night and Sue's Christmas party...I feel like a completely different person since I've finally gained significant down time.
I think alot of my stress came from the fact that I was beginning to fear a breakdown, too much stress and emotional baggage and hardly enough rest. I've been feeling better on so many levels.
And I'm looking forward to Ocean City more than ever, looking at it as less than a move and more of a vacation, a hiatus from my day-to-day sentence.
On a lighter note, Christmas was muy excelente. I got a Nintendo DS! Badass! It's led to addiction, however, and my neck is stiff from being glued to it for so many hours. I also got a portable DVD player so I can easily kill all of the break time I have in between classes next semester. And I finally have snuggly winter clothes! Yay!
The days ahead are looking up, seeing as tomorrow is my last day at Walmart...you may applaud at your leisure. A break from the retail scene is most definitely in order, I need to nurture the itty bitty soul I have left. I am gonna miss the fuck out of my coworkers though, but that's what visitation rights are for! :]
I need some time away, to chill out, get myself back together. I plan on being obligation free until the 23rd when classes start again. I also plan on many trips back to good ol' Hammonton while all of my college kin are still around.
I've been realizing a lot of things lately and this new perspective is doing a good job of making me feel better.
That's good times.
And I've been having lots of those lately, between hanging out with Regina, and Tequila/Margarita Night and Sue's Christmas party...I feel like a completely different person since I've finally gained significant down time.
I think alot of my stress came from the fact that I was beginning to fear a breakdown, too much stress and emotional baggage and hardly enough rest. I've been feeling better on so many levels.
And I'm looking forward to Ocean City more than ever, looking at it as less than a move and more of a vacation, a hiatus from my day-to-day sentence.
On a lighter note, Christmas was muy excelente. I got a Nintendo DS! Badass! It's led to addiction, however, and my neck is stiff from being glued to it for so many hours. I also got a portable DVD player so I can easily kill all of the break time I have in between classes next semester. And I finally have snuggly winter clothes! Yay!
The days ahead are looking up, seeing as tomorrow is my last day at Walmart...you may applaud at your leisure. A break from the retail scene is most definitely in order, I need to nurture the itty bitty soul I have left. I am gonna miss the fuck out of my coworkers though, but that's what visitation rights are for! :]
Current Music: December --Collective Soul